Join me as I try to capture my thoughts, my failures, and my travelings in this new chapter of my life.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Black Swan
So this weekend a good friend and I went to go see Natalie Portman in Black Swan. I was blown away.
It is very hard to sit through a movie like this and not be enthralled.
The whole movie you are wondering what the heck is going on and what Natalie in imagining and what is actually happening.
Now...this movie is not for everyone. If you get squeamish during awkward sex scenes or you get scared when impossible things start happening...this movie may not be for you. But to me is was amazing to dive into someones head who, her whole life, had been obsessed with her body, her face, her complection.....her need to "be perfect".
It is very hard to sit through a movie like this and not be enthralled.
The whole movie you are wondering what the heck is going on and what Natalie in imagining and what is actually happening.
Now...this movie is not for everyone. If you get squeamish during awkward sex scenes or you get scared when impossible things start happening...this movie may not be for you. But to me is was amazing to dive into someones head who, her whole life, had been obsessed with her body, her face, her complection.....her need to "be perfect".
Monday, December 20, 2010
Eat. Pray. Love.
So I had sworn that I would not watch this movie because I heard that it was just about a whiney woman who needed to find herself through Travel...but I got in the travel mood and thought...what the heck.
My friends were not wrong though. Throughout the whole movie you are wondering why she is so miserable... though travel is wonderful and will show you so many things about yourself... she went about "finding herself" the wrong way.
If you want to find yourself...you don't need to meditate and sit in silence...why? Because all you do is sit and think about yourself. Why not get up...be thankful for what you have and go help people who do not have anything. You want to "find yourself"...go and be selfless and help the helpless! Serve! Love on those around you! Go play with orphans! Love on your husband! Love on your family! Go clean up a HWY! Go be a candy striper at a hospital or nursing home! Go deliver flowers to families in need!
When you serve...it forces you to think beyond yourself! And thus...you are no longer thinking about "me, myself, and I".
But I did like the end of the movie...when she selflessly asked for help for the medicine woman and opened herself up for love. The ending was great and so was the scenery. Can't get any better than Italy, India, and Bali!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Wit
My favorite poet is John Donne. From his ridiculously descriptive poems about his wife to his Holy Sonnets John Donne touches my heart.
In the Emma Thompson movie Wit, her character is a John Donne Literature Proffesor who gets Ovarian Cancer and gets treated with a New Cancer Treatment...it is one of the hardest movies to watch but it was so beautiful. I have put the ending link below...watch it...but beware. It will make you cry.
This is my play's last scene Here... Heavens appoint my pilgrimage's last mile And my race Idly, yet quickly run Hath this last pace My span's last inch My minute's last point And gluttonous death Will instantly unjoint my body and soul" John Donne...
I've always particularly liked that poem. In the abstract. Now I find the image of my minute's last point, a little too, shall we say... pointed. I don't mean to complain but I am becoming very sick. Very sick. Ultimately sick, as it were. In everything I have done, I have been steadfast. Resolute. Some would say in the extreme. Now, as you can see, I am distinguishing myself in illness. I have survived eight treatments of Hexamethophosphacil and Vinplatin at the full dose, ladies and gentlemen. I have broken the record. I have become something of a celebrity. Kelekian and Jason are simply delighted. I think, they see celebrity status for themselves upon the appearance of the journal article, they will no doubt write about me. But I flatter myself. The article will not be about me, it will be about my ovaries. It will, be about my peritoneal cavity. Which, despite their best intentions, is now crawling with cancer. What we have come to think of as me is, in fact, just the specimen jar. Just the dust jacket. Just the white piece of paper... that bears the little black marks... My next line is supposed to be something like this: "It is such a relief to get back to my room after those infernal tests." This is hardly true. It would be a relief to be a cheerleader on her way to Daytona Beach for spring break. To get back to my room after those infernal tests is just the next thing that happens. "
Monday, December 13, 2010
Favorite Craig Ferguson Quotes
"....maybe fear is God's way of saying, "Pay attention, this could be fun." — Craig Ferguson (American on Purpose)
"Everything I think of now is too rude to actually say." — Craig Ferguson
"You better watch out. You better not cry. You better not pout, I'm telling you why, Cause Santa Clause might put a cap in your ass." — Craig Ferguson
"I'm always a bit shy around evil people..." — Craig Ferguson (American on Purpose)
"I'm gonna enjoy being old I think I'll be awesome at it." — Craig Ferguson
"I freely admit I'm confused. I'm a confused and troubled individual but at the same time...Its Free! " — Craig Ferguson
"Be careful who you choose as your hero or who you choose to deify, be it Clay Aiken or Barack Obama. You put all you're hope and all your dreams and all your ideas about stuff into one human being. They're a human being they're going to let you down. You can't make someone your hero because of something you read on the internet. The internet is not a source of information it is a source of disinformation." — Craig Ferguson
Prayer of Betty Scott Stam ~*
"Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes
All my own desires and hopes and accept
Thy will for my life.
I give myself, my life, my all
Utterly to Thee to be Thine forever.
Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit
Use me as Thou wilt,
send me where Thou wilt
And work out Thy whole will in my life
at any cost now
and forever."
~Betty Scott Stam
"Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes
All my own desires and hopes and accept
Thy will for my life.
I give myself, my life, my all
Utterly to Thee to be Thine forever.
Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit
Use me as Thou wilt,
send me where Thou wilt
And work out Thy whole will in my life
at any cost now
and forever."
~Betty Scott Stam
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Florence and the Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nxO-yPQesA
Lyrics to Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) :
The looking glass, so shiny and new
How quickly the glamor fades
I start spinning slipping out of time
Was that the wrong pill to take (Raise it up)
You made a deal, and now it seems you have to offer up
But will it ever be enough(Raise it up, raise it up)
It's not enough(Raise it up, raise it up)
Here I am, a rabbit hearted girl
Frozen in the headlights
It seems I've made the final sacrifice
We raise it up, this offering
We raise it up
This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
And turns me to gold in the sunlight
I look around, but I can't find you(raise it up)
If only I could see your face(raise it up)
Instead of rushing towards the skyline(raise it up)
I wish that I could just be brave
I must become a lion hearted girl
Ready for a fight
Before I make the final sacrifice
Monday, December 6, 2010
A Good Year
One of my favorite movies is "A Good Year". It makes me want to go to France, eat cheese, drink wine and play chess. I love everything about the movie from the scenery to the lines...
I came across the book in the library the other day and so I checked it out. It sort of has a different and more complicated plot but it still leaves you with the same feeling...Adventure!
Max is a London broker who has to leave his wonderful life of glass and metal to his uncle Henry's estate in Frances...problems arise when the wine turns out to be undrinkable and unsellable. Or so it seems.
I came across the book in the library the other day and so I checked it out. It sort of has a different and more complicated plot but it still leaves you with the same feeling...Adventure!
Max is a London broker who has to leave his wonderful life of glass and metal to his uncle Henry's estate in Frances...problems arise when the wine turns out to be undrinkable and unsellable. Or so it seems.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Pomegranate Soup
I went to the Library and ran into this novel that surprised me.
Three Middle Eastern women flee from their home and move to Ireland to open up a cafe and leave their old life behind.
Throughout the story of the three exotic women the author writes in recipes and it literally made my mouth water...
From the recipes to the romance to the action the story of these three young women make you happy to be sitting in Alabama, USA with my life and rights.
From Lentil to Pomegranate Soup...I was enchanted by the lives of these three brave women who fight for their right to live!
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